I did not have the misfortune of losing many friends (2) to HIV/AIDS in the 80's up until now. I was never into the Gay scene surrounded by many gay friends who lived to party until the epidemic AIDS came about that wiped out a large number of people suffering from it. This is more relevant for those who lived in areas with a large gay population, not so in Hawaii.
I am having a difficult time trying to relate to this doom and gloom mentality that is real for some people but not for myself.
For those who are in therapy, good on you! for taking the initiative in getting the needed help.
I was with my partner, Timmy, since 2003. When he passed away in 2018 I internalized my grief and fought everyday to keep my composure while at work and at home with my family. I have really never put closure to his death even though he had HIV he did not die from it. I am still dealing with the thoughts daily and miss his love and companionship tremendously. There are no words, really. I am grateful and thankful for the support of my team here and from my family at home. This is how I deal with loss.

Well keeping busy is something that helps as long as I try to keep focus. I've lost many friends to this disease. I honestly suffer from survivors guilt as well. I see a psychiatrist and psychologist and am on medication. Sometimes it isn't enough. I understand why you feel this way. If you want someone to talk to I'm here.

@Un miembro de myHIVteam Gay friendly areas in Hawaii are predominantly in Waikiki and I live on another island (Maui) where it is almost non existent.
I have found Sativa gives me energy when I need to get motivated and have something to get done that I would normally put off.
Indica is what I burn when I want to relax and fall asleep.
Hybrids are a hit or miss thing for me and sometimes work both ways.
I know Florida lawmakers have introduced legislation to legalize recreational use in that state. One day soon! Take care and Aloha!
https://www.wfla.com/news/florida/florida-lawma...

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I lost a good friend to aids back in 1984 and I have never forgotten him and I try to remember him in my prayers and I have days that I am glad he has passed because he suffered so much. I am so glad that I didn’t have the problem that he had when I was diagnosed with aids.

Well i had lil sinus and sore throat and Loss of taste maybe hour no fever was only tested poz again for something lol how can there be negatives when so much poz lol well look for the siver lining we are all here together snd are high immuno suppressant that helps stop other diseases too i feel like this helps us stay well hugs
Bob